Poetry

I started thinking in poetry lines this morning during church, as it happens occasionally. The subjects of my poems are often spiritual, so it seems to fit. Usually it's just a few lines or so, but this time I just kept going. My mind was in the right groove, I guess. Anyway, I started working on it tonight again, and I ended up with a page of poetry and I felt like posting it. So, here it is. I think I may end up adding more to it at some point. It seems. . . . unfinished. Too vague.

Chief of Sinners

The chief of sinners! that is me
The chief of sinners, now I see.
My heart is black, so dark with sin
My eyes are blind - can't see within
My ears so dull drown all else out
No more my conscience, seared, does shout
Twas all shoved back out of my way
For self I lived from day to day
Without a care but for my life
No thoughts to spare for others' strife
More terrible still, I see it clear,
No words of God would I dare hear
I shunned the thought and banned all talk
Of Christ and God and righteous walk
And then one day, I heard to me
Something none other could foresee
Only God in His matchless grace
Would think to save me from the race
To death - the road I'd tread before
Now by His love, I tread no more.
When He called, I could but obey
I knew He was the only way
His voice so quiet, strong and firm
My heart did change! Now I do yearn
To find Him - He Who ope'd my eyes
To have Him, love Him - greatest prize.
And now as His beloved child,
I find within Him nothing mild.
His pow'r and glory have no end
And at His side I'll stand a friend.
A friend of God! How can it be?
What glory is this gift to me?
To think that one day I shall see
My God - with Him to ever be.

Christmas

It is the 25th of December, 2008. It's Christmas Day. And yet, not Christmas for my family. We're weird like that. lol ;) Ours isn't for two days yet. Sometimes it comes early for us, but sometimes it comes later. This year was a later year.

I'm on "Christmas Break" but not really, since I'm not going back to school next semester. It's kind of sad. I'm going to miss people. A lot. I already do. But oh well. Plans are all good and nice, but when it comes down to doing them, something usually seems to get in the way. Like laziness. Or, lack of motivation. (Is that another way of saying lazy? /shrug) I want time off. I'm getting it, but I have this feeling I'm going to want more than I should and that's going to be bad, because I have no money and I'm not making any right now. I should get on that. Eventually.

I wished like 40 people Merry Christmas on Facebook after midnight last night. Hehe. It was fun. Got a little long, but it was still fun. It was kind of interesting how with most people, who I don't really know that well, I was all "Merry Christmas!!!" Lots of exclamation points and stuff, which is not how I am with people I trust or know very well. Hehe. And then with people I do, my tone (even in type you can tell) automatically changed. I found it interesting, but I'm probably boring anyone who might read this. Oh well.

Anyway, I shall be off. Merry Christmas. :) And in case I don't get around to posting again anytime soon, Happy New Year. :)

Why I'm not a Music Major

A) They kill themselves with practice time. Aside from all their other homework.
B) Generally speaking, they're not organized (or very logical) and they speak of things in very vague terms.
C) When I have to play in front of people, I start shaking. And it doesn't go away with time - it gets worse. If I were to have a half-hour platform, it would look like I was having a seizure.

So there you have it. Music majors are definitely their own breed - and they know it.

I took my first final this morning. Probably one of my easier ones, but since I had to play in front of my teacher and Mrs. Loggans (another piano teacher), I was nervous. My pedal foot/leg started shaking around the transition between Hymn 1 and Hymn 2 and would not be still. At least my hands were mostly good till I was done - then they started in as well. Hehehe.

I have another one (final) after chapel. I'm not really worried about it. It's Lifetime Fitness. /shrug

After that, we get to go clean for White Glove Check. . . . Yay. . . . :P I will say one thing about having more people in the room - you have less responsibilities. Especially if you take up the least amount of room. =) I'm mostly packed already. Makes me feel like I should be leaving this afternoon, but alas. 96 hours from now, I'll be leaving. . . I think. . . Around there.

It's extremely cold today. You can tell because the sun is shining. . . . lol My car was frozen shut this morning. The lock on my driver's side door is frozen too - couldn't get it open at all. I just had to pull really hard on the passenger side (after unlocking it) and it opened. Same with my trunk. I think I'll run my car for a little while and get it warmed up and then maybe it'll unlock again. Not that I really need it to, I guess. It doesn't seem like it'd be good for it though. . . Maybe it doesn't matter. /shrug What do I know about cars. lol Well, I should probably get over to chapel.

I have a huge Spanish test tomorrow that I'm not looking forward to at all. . . . So if anyone reading this (Aside from Mom, cause I know you're already praying. :)) would feel so inclined to offer up a request on my behalf, I'd appreciate it. I feel like I've been Spanish-ed out already, and it's a 14-page test. . . . Anyway. Off I go. Have a good day. Stay inside if you can.

Oo! I forgot! Something good - It was raining last night and then obviously the temperature fell drastically, and yet there really isn't that much ice, which is kind of amazing. :) I thought I might be slipping all the way up from the dorm. =D

Sunday at Even

I have a test tomorrow. In Spanish, again. I'm afraid of it.

How come parents don't stick with the rules they made for you? They tell you that you have to have your Christmas list in on time if you expect to get anything, and then they tell you that you have to have it in anyway, even if you don't really care, because they don't know what to get you. But when you tell them, what do they do!? They say things like, "I don't want anything. Really, don't worry about it." :P Hehe. (That was not to be read seriously, whatsoever.)

I can't express my happiness right now at not having to come back to school next semester. Don't get me wrong, school is good. I like it here. But I'm so sick of the school part of school right now. . . And the wind of Wisconsin. I love wind, but bitter cold wind that makes it so you can't see where you're going and whips the light, fluffy snow in your face so hard that it stings, that's not fun. I'll go back to Michigan, thank you very much. =) More snow, less cold, less wind. =D And trees!!! Michigan - the prefect mitten. Teehee.

Steph wants me to come for her recital next semester. I'd like to. In fact, I'd like to come back for a lot of things. Wear my jeans all around campus. Haha. ;) I doubt I would do that. I don't like sticking out. But anyway. I want to be here for the Great Lakes Music Festival, and the play, and Steph's recital, and the Baptist Fundamentalism Conference. Unfortunately, I have a bunch of debt and must get a job and work until it's all gone. Which is about six thousand dollars worth. . . . Pray I can get a better job than McDonald's, please? I don't want to go back there. . . Again. Also, it doesn't pay very well.

I can't seem to get it in my head that it's December and Christmas is coming. . . It felt like it when I was home, then I came back to school and it feels like February or something. . . I don't know. Not December though. Probably because I've never been away from home at this time. Just doesn't feel like Christmas. . . /shrug

It's that time again!

Time to make bizarre faces? Time to make fun of the Disney Channel? NO! Time for *drumroll* The Wheel of Morality!!

Wheel of Morality, turn, turn, turn. Tell us the lesson that we should learn.
And the moral of today's story is! . . . . Moral #1 - People in glass houses should get dressed with the lights out.

But enough of the good ole days when we could sit and watch 3 hours of Animaniacs, thereby learning such valuable truths.

Today is the 2nd of December. Thanksgiving is over and become a distant and clouded memory because of sugar over-dosing. (First jellos, then pie (9 of them), then candy. It's a wonder we didn't all keel over.) Also because of the drowsiness caused by the turkey, and the simple act of being in a warm house with full bellies.

Once our heads cleared a little, we engaged in some games, the best of which was hitting people with a bat. (Speaking of bats, I saw one of the creatures on the ceiling of Old Main the other day. They're so cute!) Violent? Not really. It was padded and most people were afraid to use it.

Thanksgiving is a time of feasting. A time of fellowship, catching up with people you haven't seen for perhaps months. Fun and games! Also, a time to sleep and watch many movies. (Iron Man is awesome. And the new Indiana Jones is pretty cool too. Iron Man was awesome though.) I used to think that over such breaks, it would be cool to get homework done early. To get ahead. What I found, is that if you do get ahead, you end up being bored during school. Whereas, if you stay on track, you enjoy your break more, and you're able to stay busy at school with actual school and not video games or something. (Chip's Challenge, anyone?)

It's that time again. Time to go and be responsible. Time to accomplish something.
Perhaps a nap.